Soundtrack

[Lars]

So Jenn nobody said anything about your "life story" CD's. I liked them. My favorite tracks are Reborn and The Year of Hell. Tell us what your inspiration and junk was.

[Dolari]

So Jenn nobody said anything about your "life story" CD's. I liked them. My favorite tracks are Reborn and The Year of Hell. Tell us what your inspiration and junk was.

Glad you liked the songs. I really enjoyed putting it together and hoped to introduce people to new music and learn a little about me. Some of the Inspirations and junk:

1) The Foundation - Echoes by Pink Floyd - When I think about the first few eyars of my life, a lot of them were about exploring and learning and seeing wonder in things. And I think this song with all its etherialness (minus the Scary Dolphin Part) really fit that mood. Very slow, but very experimental.
2) Age 4 - For What It's Worth by Buffalo Springfield - A song about us losing our house in 1979, first years in school, general paranoia about our lives being turned upside down, and new authority figures (teachers) taking control from my parents.
3) The Elementary Years - Pinball Wizard by The Who - Not to toot my own horn, but I was considered a genius as a kid, and was kind of a scholarly rockstar, specifically in science. It was instinct to me, never had to work at it.
4) Year 5 - Saved by Science by Joanne Harris - Fifth grade was when I first started getting the idea that I was trans. A lot of it was me wondering about myself and wether I'd ever be fixed. Saved by science, or maybe "my computer reprogramed my dreams."
5) Middle School Years - Musica's Theme by Ulpio Minucci - My middleschool years were just insane with depression brough on by my transsexuality. I was miserable, unhappy, suicidal. The song reminds me of my uneasiness in school at the time.
6) High School Years - Zephyr & I by Suzanne Vega - A lot of my high school years were filled with good friends who I'm still friends with (mostly, where are you Kathy, I miss ya?!), just hanging out in various places and being with friends, like Suzanne and Zephyr are reminiscing about in the song.
7) Poco - Spock by James Horner - A friend of mine, who was gentle, exotic, who became as close as a sister. The mood fits her.
8) The Xicana - Soul to Squeeze by the Red Hot Chili Peppers - Another friend of mine, another who became close as sisters. She was a huge big RHCP fan (And introduced me to most of my 90s music), so I knew her song was gonna be RHCP. I picked this one because a lot of the song is like our relationship over the years.
9) Year 12 - As Girls Go by Suzanne Vega - I came out as trans to my friends this year. Self explanitory.
10) The Southerner - Breakin' the Girl by the Red Hot Chillipeppers - Another person who I became very close to, to the point of becoming soul mates. It didn't work out in the end, we went our seperate ways under bad circumstances. The song is one I listened to a lot when I Was with her, and didn't realize the lyrics would become a prophecy. I can't hear this song without thinking of her.
11) The Early Nineties - In Bloom by Nirvana - A lot of my early 90s was with Poco, The Xicana and the Southerner, and learning and listening and being with them. But I didn't quite UNDERSTAND them. They came frmo all sorts of different worlds, and I just went with it. I "likes to sing along, but don't know what it means." I didn't understand them till much later, but had fun singing along till I knew what it meant. If that makes any sense....
12) Reborn - Brain Damage by the Squirrels - An event in my life I don't like to talk about. There's a line called "There's someone in my head, but it's not me." The Pink Floyd one wasn't crazy enough, so I went with the Squirrels version.
13) The Lonely Years - My Friends by Red Hot Chili Peppers - For a few years after my crappy college career, I lived aone in an apartment throwing newspapers for a living. The Southerner had long since left, I was estranged from The Xicana, and Poco ws having her own problems, so I felt very very very alone. The sadness of this song and the lyrics about my friends and I being in trouble so so so so match my life at the time. Even the line about the little girl at the end fit, as I met someone who'd change my life again.
14) The German - Whoever You Are by Geggy Tah - I met a wonderful guy, who loved this song, AND it's totally in his nature to write a song about a man who let him change lanes. Still know him, and he's a dear friend.
15) The Pennsylvanian Years - I Will Buy You a New Life by Everclear - Living with the German in Pennsylvania was just like this song. Money was tight and we were always hurting for it, and our conversations were just like in the song. Just wierd, disjointed, and yet we were perfectly fine with it.
16) The Austin Years - Planet Texas by Kenny Rogers - Austin is a WIERD WIERD place, and unmistakably Texan. This song is a WIERD WEIRD song, and unmistakeably Texas.
17) The Year of Hell - No Children by the Mountain Goats - 2001 was the worst year of my life, hands down. 2009 is almost there. This song is SO negative, so bitter, so angry, so sad, it was exactly how I was in 2001. I hated everything, was sad as hell, and came so close repeatedly to offing myself and anyone around me at the same time. It was bad....
18) The Comics - Instrumental B by My Bloody Valentine - Actually, this is the theme I hear specifically for one of the angels in AWFW. It's got a heavy beat, then lovely choral sounds over that - I was serious about my comic about angels. Still am.
19) The Artist - Song for Ten by Murray Gold - a friend I met, who I fell in love with, but before I could act on anything, she was scoooped up by another friend. Like the song, I was happy that I'd fallen for her, and while I was bittersweet that someone else got her, was also happy for the two. We're all still good friends.
20) The Canadian - We Have All the Time in the World by John Barry - The love of my life. She is everything that song is. The violins, the (unsung) lyrics, the gentleness....it's all her.
21) The San Marcos Years - Luckenbach, Texas by Waylon Jennings - Living in San MArcos was probably some of the best years of my life. Life was good, the comics were good, the job was good, The Canadian and I were good. Everything there was just GOOD, like the singers wanted in Luckenbach.
22) The World Tour - America by Simon & Garfunkle - The trip The Canadian and I took to Seattle was a lot like this. Seeing the sights, having fun, but a time goes on, we get quieter and quieter, and finally the doubts we had once we got to Seattle.
23) The Seattle Years - Texas by Chris Rea - Seattle has been an absolute disaster, and I've wanted nothing more than to go back to Texas. Kinda self explanatory if you liste to the lyrics/
24) The NExt Thirty Five Years - The Passage of Time by Bear McCreary - I just really like this one.

[Lars]

Most of the songs perfectly depict what you're trying to convey. I figured The German was about someone who helped you out, and I knew The Canadian must be the love of your life. The Austin Years made me laugh. I've heard the guy that made King of the Hill did so partly to parody weirdness he saw in other Texans. "The Year of Hell" makes me think a lot about my past and how I used to react so hatefully to those around me when I was depressed or hurt. I'd like to think I'm better about it now and if it makes you feel any better you aren't the only one 2009 has beat the hell out of. I could say so much more but I think I'll start rambling. I loved the cover slip by the way, Jenn = frazzled.